16 HOTD: The Good, The Bad, and The EMPThe Good, The Bad, and The EMP Master Shido, those on the bus called him this now, stepped out of the bus first, and bowed to the nearest guard with a flourish of arm waving. "AH! Safety at last! Come students, come come." His words were as grand as his mannerisms. Shido clapped twice at his "students" to disembark. The first two that came out were Tsunda and Miura, both had their black, school uniforms on. Yuuki Miku followed the two young men off the bus, several other faces peered through the door from the interior. Yuuki also had her school uniform on. Shido had made sure they were the only three of his followers that made an appearance at this time. He also made sure that they had washed and that their clothes looked neat and tidy. Shido found himself looking at the large frame of Yoshioka, the man everyone knew a
15 HOTD: The Companions OuttingThe Companions Outing Leaving the compound the companions had chosen a spot where a ramp had been built against the manor's protective wall. Little notice was given to them, which is what they wanted. Climbing atop the wall, only nearby guards watched, quietly. The group, like shadows, silently dropped down on the walk and headed off into the grayness of the neighborhood. Takashi did send word ahead to the outer perimeter as to which way they would be leaving the safe zone. This allowed a few of the guards to make enough noise to lure as many of Them away along the perimeter as possible. When they reached the wire, the group crawled through to the other side. It was late morning, and they still had plenty of time to scavenge a few places for supplies. However, the clouds were gray and heavy with rain.
I Can'tI Can'tI can'tI've tried toForgive the past, pain, guiltShe said, "You need to give yourself permission".I can'tI've tried toGive myself permissionThe past lingers, like ghosts, swirling, hauntingThe pain hurts, like yesterday, curdling my thoughtsThe guilt drives me to self destructionI can'tI've tried toBalance, live, make peaceThey say, "You can't love others if you don't love yourself"I can'tI've tried toLove myselfBalance my needs and wants, I'm too selfish, the wants winLive, in the now, leaving yesterday's mistakes, and tomorrow's fearsMake peace, with myself, the world, those in itMy body hurts, aches, itches, bleeds, is brokenSelf indulgence overwhelms patience and common senseResolve failsRest is fleetingI awaken, tiredOne foot in front of the other, beaten, bested, left behindDarkness is solitudeSleep, lovely forgetfulnessWaking, horrible remorseLiving hardI canI'll try toGo onLive, be happy, loveLive with pain, and smile, be better for it